Footsteps in the right direction

It's amazing how being obedient in one little thing can completely change your mood. Call me crazy, but ever since I hit the "send" button on my SummerShine application, my days have gotten considerably better. It wasn't really an immediate weight lifted off my shoulders, but it's slowly eased its way down. As I sit by my computer waiting to hear back from either the Elks or from SummerShine, I've done a lot of thinking. Would God have put me here if He didn't have a good reason? Who am I to question what He's got planned? Why do I worry so much? Good grief I have so many questions...

Oddly enough, I can't get "You are my joy, You are my joy, You are my JOY" out of my head. It's a great song, and I kept singing it over and over again while I was in the shower today. Maybe it's God's way of showing me that I can be happy, and that I don't have to constantly question Him. I'm working on that still...

In the brief moments of beautiful weather we had at the beginning of the week, my friend and I decided to take a walk. It started out as just a way to get a little exercise without having to actually go to the gym. We ended up walking on the roads that go around the school for over an hour and a half. I learned a lot about her, and feel a lot closer to her now. As I was thinking about it, I realized God's showing Himself there too. I had been feeling like most of my good friends are at home, and then He points out that I have really great friends here too. I just love HIM!!! He can make a good day even better, and pull me out of the deepest wells of self pity. He is AMAZING!

I do still miss being home, but I'm not really dreading this weekend as much as I thought I would be. It's only 2 days away, and I haven't really considered going home. God's really given me a peace about staying on campus, which I didn't think would happen at all. I'm actually thinking that I will be able to survive the last 22 days of class. (Crazy huh? The year seems to have flown by!) I'm not really off the hook for learning till May 24th when I get back from Mexico, but the more I learn about what exactly we will be doing there, the more it becomes the beast that I will tackle when it arrives at my doorstep. I am excited about it, but it's definitely going to be different than I originally thought... Oh well, God will help me through it all! Thank goodness God can handle everything in the way that is best!

I'm finally my happy self again :)