Change isn't always bad

So I never really thought that I would find myself writing a blog, but here it goes.

Today has been really busy as I'm packing up and getting ready to return to school. I'm really dreading that 2.5 hour drive that I have to make tomorrow as I leave all my family and friends behind. Don't get me wrong, I love college, but so many things have happened over the past few days that I just wish winter break didn't have to end.

School is going to be different. Good, even great things can come out of it. I'm beginning to try finding the positive side of life instead of dreading the negative. Maturing maybe? Who knows...

It started just over a month ago when one of my greatest friends on campus told me she was thinking about leaving because of issues with her roommate. I was really mad about her deciding to leave, and I couldn't picture school without her. I wanted her to stay, so I did everything I could think of that would make her stay. How selfish am I? She was miserable, and all I could think about was me, but God gave me a second chance. She decided to stay and I was elated! Just the other day, she informed me that she really isn't coming back, but for reasons that were out of her control. Maybe I have matured a little in the last few weeks, or maybe God gave me power from within, but it was a whole lot easier this time. I accepted it, and thought about her for once instead of myself. I'm so glad that I met her, and will never forget her.

Unfortunately, she's not the only one leaving from my hall, several people have decided that WU isn't their perfect fit. It's sad to see them go, and I wish they didn't have to, but my time there isn't up, and I have to continue on no matter how hard it is. It will be strange to not see some familiar faces, and to have to get to know new girls, but God's not leaving and I know he will help me every step of the way. It's not in my control, it's in His, and for that, I am so grateful!

I've loved hanging out with friends almost nonstop and sleeping in. It might sound crazy, but I've loved being able to go to work and almost slip back into the norm of my summer life. It's not summer anymore, and the weather isn't the only thing that proves that. I have new friends that may be far away today, but will live close by tomorrow. Getting texts from them over the break made me kinda miss school. It sounds crazy, but those girls on my hall are almost a new family to me. We fight an awful lot, but we also laugh and learn together. While I'm not ready to leave home, I am in a way ready to go back. I think way to much when I drive, I'm all by myself and my head just fills with all the negatives. It's the transition between two homes, and it gives me way too much to regret about having to leave that I can't even think about all the good things about being back. Sometimes I wish I could just walk out my door at home and immediately be at school. It would make it so much easier. If i can get the drive over with, everything else will fall back into place.