Coming Home

As i was checking e-mail and facebook tonight, I turned the shuffle on my itunes as i usually do. I came across a song that was played at Elevation last Sunday. I got home from church and immediately downloaded it, because it was a song that I had heard before on the radio and it really meant something to me, but i couldn't put my finger on it. As it played tonight, it brought tears to my eyes as i realized what Pastor Steven's message, Shut Up and Come Home, really meant. I'm not sure why it took me so long to understand, but God used that simple secular song to mean something to lil' old me. Something in me has seemed to be a little different since i first moved in to Wingate. I didn't become an extremely bad person or anything, but i kept my faith to myself. I'm not sure whether i was afraid of how other people would view me or i just needed to drift so i could let God come scoop me up. I was basically a lighthouse without a bulb, just standing there and didn't serve any real purpose, just a circular pile of bricks. Well I'm done with all that, I'm COMING HOME and i don't care how people view me. They don't really matter after all, it's more important that i pursue God and his purpose for my life.

Ironically, the song that came next was by The Newsboys and contains what i think is one of my favorite words from the Bible: Selah. It's a word that David frequently used in Psalm at the end of his songs. It means 'pause and reflect,' and reminds me of who i was in high school. At Core we talked about Selah and the meaning behind it, and started the practice of ending all our prayers of it. I had forgotten about it till that song started playing and the word immediately stood out.

None of it really makes sense, and it's rather ironic that God gave me hints when i got to my house in Greensboro, but all that matters is that when i step back on campus on Monday, I'm going to make a point to follow God no matter what people think of me. My Heavenly Father has been waiting, he found me, and I'm finally coming home!